I think this needs to be pinned at the top of something, lol But seriously...newbs/young uns' like me don't know what they're getting into when coming on a forum like this! What ya described is exactly where I'm at. I feel a little less shame now knowing that other folks have gone through the process (the shame part it tough) and I'm also seeing that there is a lot of stuff within that needs to be looked at. Teaching me that I got long ways to go with how I process stuff in general. And it has been bruising and painful...and I ain't handled it great (mostly because if shame. I learn from criticism but get defensive because of shame).
I am not sure how good I'll ever be at posting about technical details...but I'm almost sure I'll be able to pick up on tendencies (like what progressive patterns without blocking do...or no do in this case, lol). I think I can get better at reading H5 and such, though.
Anyway, thank you so much for your post--ya always keep it 100.