You're definitely weird but that's ok. My first thought is to give you some wisdom filled response about living in the moment and being grateful for the positive things in your life. Then I thought about how you probably have heard that kinda stuff your entire life. We all find joy in our own little weird way. Just because you don't think like I do, doesn't mean I need to help you think differently. A lot of people think im weird for wondering around smoking joints in the woods all day while its snowing. I hope you get lots of digital blue and exciting PBP's in your future. Stay weird, my friend.