You know, for me all antidepressants cure my depressive feelings after 2-3 doses. Life is cool, but they all (except mirtazapine, sigh) put the gas on my anxiety. Feeling depressed? Ok, take AD XYZ...depression gone within 2-3 doses. But feel the anxiety, like 25 cups of coffee. And the longer you take it, the worse it gets. It wouldn't be so bad but when you're amped up on anxiety you can't sleep. Which means your depression and anxiety are all the worse.
It is what it is, I'm always hoping the next AD will be the magic elixir but that's typically not the case. Fucking mirtazapine. It's a miracle drug but for God knows whatever reason after 2-3 days it causes my joints to swell up and my skin to start burning. So it goes.
Its amazing how many ppl are suffering the same problems but they to hide it. I actually started a support group at work for anxiety and insomnia. It was amazing how many coworkers came out of the woodwork to join and commiserate. Like you implied, it's a shame how much stigma is attached to it.